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agoodwinsmith) wrote2021-04-11 06:19 pm
agoodwinsmith) wrote2021-04-11 06:19 pm
CPAP is winning ...
... and I'm losing the fight with the mask.
I've looked at other styles of masks, and I do think the one I have is a very good style and fit. I haven't seen anything better, and certainly nothing I want to spend $200.00 on - even if it is only Canadian dollars.
My issue is that I have something on my face and head, which I hate. I do not wear hats, scarves, hoods, tiaras, headbands, or tinfoil prophylactics. I do not like things on my head. Part of the issue is that I have a big head, so most things are too small and give me a raging cranky headache. The headgear I am using is not tight (great ability to adjust), but that means that the mask leaks air. I can sleep through the sound, but the rapid frequency vibration on my cheek is just a no.
So. I resolutely put it on my face every night, and now I am hardly coming awake to take it off. I still remember (vaguely) taking it off, and I am still justifying it to myself (gonna go pee, gonna blow my nose, gonna do some damn forgotten thing that will justify the removal of the mask) - and then just falling back to sleep. Sometimes I turn the machine off, sometimes I don't. When I reach the point where I have no recollection of removing the mask, then I will be doomed.
I have independent testimony (sleep over with friends at 18) that I am able to get up, walk across the room, turn off someone else's alarm, and go back to bed - and never even pause in my snoring.
So anyway - onward, ever onward. Hah.
I've looked at other styles of masks, and I do think the one I have is a very good style and fit. I haven't seen anything better, and certainly nothing I want to spend $200.00 on - even if it is only Canadian dollars.
My issue is that I have something on my face and head, which I hate. I do not wear hats, scarves, hoods, tiaras, headbands, or tinfoil prophylactics. I do not like things on my head. Part of the issue is that I have a big head, so most things are too small and give me a raging cranky headache. The headgear I am using is not tight (great ability to adjust), but that means that the mask leaks air. I can sleep through the sound, but the rapid frequency vibration on my cheek is just a no.
So. I resolutely put it on my face every night, and now I am hardly coming awake to take it off. I still remember (vaguely) taking it off, and I am still justifying it to myself (gonna go pee, gonna blow my nose, gonna do some damn forgotten thing that will justify the removal of the mask) - and then just falling back to sleep. Sometimes I turn the machine off, sometimes I don't. When I reach the point where I have no recollection of removing the mask, then I will be doomed.
I have independent testimony (sleep over with friends at 18) that I am able to get up, walk across the room, turn off someone else's alarm, and go back to bed - and never even pause in my snoring.
So anyway - onward, ever onward. Hah.
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So sorry you are having these problems. A machine was absolutely transformative for Donald.
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