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I had a dream this morning that I feel the need to record.

It starts out in my current standard dream landscape, which is always a highrise, and either an apartment or an office building. It can transition back and forth as we travel from room to room and task to task. So this eventually morphed into an old-style computer lab, where, as we used to do, one person started talking about their new piece of tech, and we all then wanted one. It was some sort of communications toggle that I didn't quite know what it did - and I wasn't sure whether or not I needed what it did - but I wanted it.

So, my real-life friend joins me, and she thinks she knows how it works, but we can't make it work, and another woman, whom I feel I should recognize in real life but don't, joined us, promising to teach us all about it. My friend was sceptical. I expected chicanery but was interested in seeing how it would roll out.

By now the place has become a fine-dining computer cafe[1] with a beautiful view and more beautiful clientel. We started ordering foods, and the chicanery woman spun out her chicanery beginning to the point that my friend left annoyed, saying she would be at mumble-mumble[2] restaurant. I hung around a little longer, and then when chicanery woman went to speak to friends at another table, I left, trying to pay the whole bill before I left. I payed a high bill with a high tip, and then I noticed that instead of charging me the amount, the machine had charged me the amount plus $1000.00. I tried to have the charge reversed and why I didn't realize this was a dream I don't know, because everything was a delay. The person didn't understand. Someone came to help, and didn't understand, and the first person went on break. A crowd started to form of people wanting to be seated. The staff couldn't seat anyone until I accepted my fate and left. Other people came out to help, getting further confused the more upset I got, and the more often and more people explained to the new people. There were aunties who were cooks, there was the tecnically manager because male with a tie, but really not helpful to either me or the people not helping me, there were other women, on and on, until finally there was the still-in-high-school male, earmarked for inheritance, who was hoping to show-up the old guard with how well he understands the "new reality", who was settling down to help me, when all my documents transformed. In the meantime all my "stuff" (purse, wallet, card, cell phone, receipts, toggles, cane, etc etc) were getting lost and found by me, around the reception desk, where the crowd of people wanting to be seated continued to grow.

When my documents changed is when my cats woke me up (I think the grader went by, and occasionally he shoves some of the snow onto a side piece of grass across my driveway, and that encroachment on their territory is tooo much), by meowing a lot and showing me fuzzed up tails. Once I was awake and so-called in charge, they settled down to stare down the hallway.

There were two clues that I should have noticed in the dream pointing to its dream-nature. One is that I can't learn anything I don't know in my dreams, because I am the only one there, and new knowledge is not available. Even when parts of me are maskerading as chicanery woman or my real friend, there is no knowledge that I didn't go to sleep with.

The second clue is that I can't read in my dreams. This is also because I am the only one there, so new-to-me written material is not available.

I'm not quite sure why I needed to write that down, but I feel better now that I have.

[1] - I never saw such a place in real life.
[2] - Honey Comb Board?
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So my sleep is all out of whack. I didn't go to bed until 6:00 am and then woke at 1:30 pm. This is the worst turn around, but it's time to fight back to the daylight. (Speaking of which, with the time change tonight, if it is now 7:30 pm, does it become 8:30 pm or 6:30 pm. I suspect 6:30 pm since it suddenly becomes dark by midafternoon coffee break. Bah.)

One of the things that happens if I sleep long enough and wake on my own is that I have very detailed dreams that I remember. Last night (or rather around noon today), someone had decided to reboot the Buffy the Vampire Slayer franchise, and had chosen me to play Buffy. (!!) (No seriously: !!) It was very peculiar because although they really wanted me to play Buffy, they also really wanted to change me: I was going to need plastic surgery on my nose and my mouth. Or - definitely my nose, and something else on my face.

I was reluctant because I thought they were totally stupid to be getting a non-actress pudgy girl (I'm perpetually young in my dreams) to play Buffy, and that even plastic surgery wasn't going to make it any better. Also, I was arguing that since I have the pending corneal surgery, I didn't want to do any more surgery - I did't even want to do that surgery. When I woke, they were still cajoling me to reconsider.

So. Buffy is a series that I enjoyed very much. I have the CDs, and I rewatch them if they are played on TV. Some episodes I skip over because, while it's nice to know what happened in them because often the info gets used later, one viewing is enough. :)

I would like a reboot of the series - but I want it with the same actors, and I want all the time to have passed so that they are dealing with the aging and disappointment and gearing up for the second half of life. I'm not interested in the same story arc with young actors. I also suspect that a younger audience isn't going to be interested in that old story.

So. Rebooting Buffy as the original - bad. Using new actors to do the old story - bad. Picking inappropriate people that need to be modified to fit the old roles - bad.

So, I suppose this is a symbolic version of feeling that the forces around me are currently trying to fit me in an old role that I don't fit and don't want. Well, yes. But suggestions about what to do about it would be more welcome, dear subconscious.

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Dec. 30th, 2018 02:26 am
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I've been sleeping long enough to remember parts of my dreams.

In one, my parents and SOGP and I were travelling through a forested area, along a broad straight path, and we came to a broken arch in a wall. From there we all jumped into the ocean below. The wall was sheer and the opening well above our heads, so there was no going back that way. On either side of the arch, the wall became high cliffs that stretched away forever on either side of us, although I only remember the view to the right. The sky was clear blue, and the water and sky met, and one knew there was just nothing out that way forever. Also, the cliffs above us also went straight down into the water forever. The depth might as well have been outer space for the amount of it. The ocean was calm and warm, without even a swell, and we were all just bobbing contentedly close to the cliff face under the arch. We had no plans to do anything but bob there.

In another I was vaccinating people with my cat, Chuckie. I would hold him on his back (so not going to happen in real life) until he was happily purring, and then I would move his head underneath someone's chin, and he would nip/nuzzle them on the edge of their jaw on their left side, and they would be vaccinated. There was no blood, and people were lining up and not squeaking while it happened. I have no idea what we were vaccinating people for.

And in another I was organizing a celebration in a town for the woman who was famous as the local hero because she had, at great personal sacrifice, saved the town by selling her pornography collection. Everyone recognized this as very generous, and loved her very much for it. The sale made all the difference to the survival of the town. She was an older grey-haired woman, and her name was Sheila Gunshot.
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I have been very anxious about the start of this new employment.  This past week I have been having very vivid dreams.  Some of them have nearly been nightmares, but not quite.  But I have been getting up early rather than go back to sleep and fall into them again.  They've all been about anxiety - last night was about losing keys - or rather one key over and over again.  But the most interesting dream was a couple nights ago.

The dream: )

Okay, yes, the anxiety is pretty evident there, but later I was thinking that the reason we venerate Jim Morrison, and other famous people like him who have been very successful and have died young, is because they take the place of the Bean King (yes, been rereading Hogfather).  In the past, we have elected someone to be King for us, and treated them as Gods, and then sacrificed him on our own behalf.  I think some of the crowd frenzy around famous people is the equivalent of shouting "Be the God!  Be the God!  Be the God!" at them, so they will take on the power and then we can reap the benefit of their sacrifice.
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So I was sleeping before a phone call, and I had been having a dream that my SOGP had died, the significance of which is easy enough to figure out.  But it reminded me of a dream where the significance of an action is still elluding me.  I was attending the funeral again (the one in mid October), and all the principals were the same as in the real event, but one of the acts of mourning was to shave off the eyebrows.  So I shaved off my eyebrows, and did it badly so that I still had stubble.  I spent the rest of the post-funeral wake looking for the razor.
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Because my contract is coming to an end, and because I do not have another lined up, I am experiencing the anxiety suite - staying up late watching bad movies (that means that tomorrow can't get here because it is still today, donchersee), not being able to go to sleep when I go to bed at the proper time for early rising, having dreams where I can't complete the tasks.  Often my memory of the dreams is just the emotion - frustration at not being able to do whatever it is I'm trying to do - can't find things, can't solve things, can't climb things, can't hold things, can't make things fit (suitcases too big too small too too), just plain can't.

Today I remembered a few bits.  My SOGP & I had each found a channel on our cell phones where short contract tasks were posted and we could get them if we punched the button quickly (think Jeopardy).  We were also in a place where we were each assigned a cubicle where we could then do these tasks.  My SOGP could not get his cell phone to actually register when he selected a task.  I had some success and a few tasks ready to complete.  However, I was having difficulty with others using their bookcases and filing cabinets to crowd into my cubicle territory, making it impossible for me to get out to the copier/fax/scan/mail room.  Strangely enough, Nana Visitor was one of the other cubicle people - though not so crass as to hog other people's space.

I like dreams - they usually mean something.  Often, however, I can only see what about 5 years later when all the context is consciously known.

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